Romans 12:2 – “And do not be conformed to this world, but be transformed by the renewing of your mind, that you may prove what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God” NKJV (emphasis added)
I am still at a place of breaking free to become the woman that God has called me to be. As I take my time in this season to watch what God is doing in my life…I am absolutely amazed at the miracle He has done in my life…
Conform (v) – assuming a similar outward expression by following the same model (i.e., another person’s characteristics)
At the age of 20, I gave birth to my daughter. I was heartbroken because I thought at that point in my life I would never have the opportunity to parent my daughter in a two parent household. I continuously compared myself to the other young ladies on campus who had had children whose fathers’ stayed in the picture.
I’ll be honest…I envied them. I wanted that.
At times I compromised and linked up with young men who had NO intentions to “be the man” of my home. I desperately wanted that perfect picture that the world called “a family”.
Transform (v.) – change of moral character for the better (i.e. in the form of Christ)
As much as I wanted what other mothers had there was a voice on the inside of me that said…
So as I laid in bed alone at night and cried…night…after night…after night. I began to read books from successful Christian single mothers. I read articles online about the successes of Christian single mothers who had a story similar to mine. I attended women bible studies, programs, and conferences.
I was connected with women who wouldn’t judge, me but empower me.
And as I continued to cry and weep unto the Lord… OVERTIME, He allowed me to develop the character of a woman who is unbothered by the critique and status of what the life of a single mom should look like.
“…that you may prove (test) what is good (what originates from God) and acceptable (well-pleasing to God) and perfect (complete in all its parts) will of God.” Rom. 12:2 NKJV
I don’t look like what I’ve been through, or what I go through now. All the tears, shame, and embarrassment of my past have been washed away. Not to mention, I still get talked about now!
It does not bother me because I serve a God with a reputation! I do not have to get into the hype or the excitement of what other people do.
I have accepted who, and whose I am, IN Christ. Apart from Him… I, DaVarika T. Johnson, am nothing.
With Him I am “a chosen people, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, God’s special possession, that I may declare the praises of Him who called me out of darkness into His wonderful light.” (1 Peter 2:9)
I’m content with that.
As single mothers, the devil plays us with the “image” of this worldly status of what a family is. He tries to kill our hope of what the Lord has in-store for us. We are not perfect. We WILL make mistakes, but we are daughters of the Most High King. He is the Author and Finisher of our faith. And as long as we seek His will and set out to please Him…
That is enough. ❤