It’s been exactly 14 months since my last post. God has been stretching my perspective, or more like attempting to stretch it. I’ve been wrestling with dying to my flesh and truly letting God have His way.
As a Christian, single-mother, teacher-coach maintaining this lifestyle is a struggle. It’s one thing to let go of the fornication, clubbing, cursing, and etc. (Lol, the sinner’s lifestyle could go on and on!) but it’s a brand new ball game when God asks you to trust Him with your life.
By life, I mean trusting God to fulfill His promises to sustain me and truly give me that future He speaks of in Jeremiah 29:11. See as Christians we know God will protect and provide, but it’s the commitment and obedience to the yes we have to give God to reach our promise land!
See me, I’m tired of struggling with my finances and allowing the enemy to run rampant in my life as if he is in control. I’m refusing to believe that living paycheck to paycheck is all God has for me. I’m refusing to envy the next woman because she has “help” with her child, or she’s single with no kids and thriving. I’ve witnessed and continue to witness too many women who have walked this road before me and are successful and thriving in their Christian journey. I know there’s more to my life than settling for being a single-mother.
I do realize it costs them something as well. The cost was their yes to God to be who HE had called them to be. They disciplined themselves to focus on Christ and who they were in Him. Refusing to look to the left and the right to those who were “making it”, and definitely choosing not to look back.
I’m on that yes journey, and I’m believing God for more. It’s uncomfortable and often brings me to tears. But I believe there is more, so I’m chasing My God for the plan He had for me long ago.
Luke 9:24 – “If you try to hang on to your life, you will lose it. But if you give up your life for my sake, you will save it.”
In this season, I constantly have to dwell on how good God has been to me and declaring the Truth of His Word. It seems like forever to my impatient self. But to Him, it’s all apart of His plan. He draws me nearer to Him with His love. He knew I would find Him some day and long for His presence.
Isaiah 30:18 – “So the Lord must wait for you to come to Him so He can show you His love and compassion. For the Lord is a faithful God. Blessed are those who wait for His help”
Often times as human beings, we overlook the true presence God has had in our lives. We rush to what’s next, delaying the process of growth. All the while, God is hoping we enjoy the sites of the green pastures, the refreshing of the still waters, and the joys of the righteous path (Psalm 23). He is hoping along the way we learn to trust Him more and more because soon we’ll have to trust Him through the darkest of valleys because He knows we’ll get weak in times where we can’t see Him.
Ephesians 2:10 – “For we are God’s handiwork, created in Christ Jesus to do good works, which God prepared in advance for us to do.”
This Christian journey is unique to each of us, but one thing about God: He’s faithful and unchanging. Trust Him as He shapes you to be the mother, sister, daughter, co-worker He has called you to be. I know it’s not comfortable but it’s on purpose…
“The beauty of the cocoon phase is that you won’t come out the same way you went in. Embrace it. Grow in it. It’s your cocoon to the next level. Your wings are coming…”