Strength & Motivation, Trust In God

“Push…”

Jeremiah 20 9

Jeremiah 20:9 – “But if I say I’ll never mention the Lord or speak in His name, His word burns in my heart like a fire. It’s like a fire in my bones! I am worn out trying to hold it in! I can’t do it!”  (NLT)

In the morning on my way to work I listen to my podcast from preachers across the country: Pastor Ed Young, Pastor Henry Tolbert, Pastor Sheryl Brady, and Bishop T.D. Jakes, just to name a few. This is my daily encouragement that I seek out to get me going in the mornings, seeing as waking up at 4:30 is a DAILY struggle. But it’s a part of my plan to get me going, setting the tone for my next level: Proverbs 31:15 – “She gets up while it is still night; she provides food for her family and portions for her female servants”. I want to be able to wake up renewed, refueled, and refreshed for what’s to come. That’s the journey I’m on…

God has really been dealing with me to PUSH pass the pressure of this new season I’m in. In this season, of my life, I started my journey into LIFE. Yes, I’ve been through some things, rather I look like it or not. Yes, I’ve had to encounter some things that I needed to learn from, but I was still a child trying to find my way…while raising a child. Yes, He sustained me through it.

This phase, though, is different…

God is giving me the tools I need to be a woman. A Proverbs 31 WOMAN! Boy, is it uncomfortable! Lol. I’m having to organize my life in ways I’ve never thought about. Being in college I took 12-16 hour semesters to account for me being a single-mother, student-athlete! I used my student LOAN refund to help pay my bills and clothe my daughter and I. I was going through the basics, yet managing and maintaining the best way I knew how.

But this phase is DIFFERENT…

This is real life! There is no refund – I have to B U D G E T!!! There is no waking up changing my mind about going to class, and still being able to drop my daughter off so I can get some rest – I have a career! There is no I’ll get to it when I get to it – This is real life!!! It DEMANDS order. Life at this point is demanding to be structured, or become a stressor.

So, as I sit here on my off day, I’m telling God I am READY. I’m ready to experience life the way He designed it for me to live. I AM READY. No more excuses. No more procrastination. No more being comfortable. Not to mention, this life of faith is not all peaches and cream anyway, right? It depends on the choices we make: to live or die, to give up or fight, to be the borrower or the lender, to remain broken or REALIZE we’re blessed…

As single mothers, we are remnants! Kept together by two precious strings called GRACE and MERCY. We are STRONG – able to place the sole weight of a family on our backs and pretend that we are not in pain. But I’ll tell you this, God sees us. How can I be so sure? His word tells me so! Those tears we sow are reaping harvests of joy (Psalm 126:5). Blessings. He alone is our Redeemer (Isaiah 54:5). The One on the hill who sees AND supplies our every need. The One who calls us HIS masterpieces (Ephesians 2:10), a reflection of who He is – STRONG! Built Ford Tough if you ask me! And there is nothing the devil can do about it: he can have all the bill collectors in the world call us, all the “baby daddy drama” or the lack there of, and thoughts of being incapable to succeed to creep in all he wants. But my God and my Bible says that Jesus came to give me life, and life MORE abundantly (John 10:10); to not stress but pray about everything (Philippians 4:6) by casting all my cares on Him (1 Peter 5:7), because He alone is greater than my feelings (1 John 3: 10) and the evil ruler of this world (1 John 4:4). It’s time for us to LIVE like we KNOW it.

We’re single mothers on purpose! Being watched by the best LIFEguard in ALL the earth. Regardless of how we feel, it is uncomfortable, God is prepping us for what’s next. Do your part. Let Him do the rest. He’s getting ready to blow you mind! BELIEVE IT!

“It’s not about what you lost, it’s about what you’re about to gain.” – Dr. Jazz, WTAL 2013

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