Psalm 126:5 – “Those who plant in tears will harvest with shouts of joy.” NLT
Everyone knows, saved or not, God’s design for a family: “First comes love, then comes marriage, here comes the baby in the baby carriage”! LOL. In other words, man meets woman. They get married. THEN they have pretty little babies. That is the way it is SUPPOSE to be. Period. However, thank God for His mercy to forgive and His grace that promises us a future in-spite of our shortcomings.
The story of Hagar and Ishmael means a lot to me.[Genesis 16] Hagar is usually mentioned because of Sarah’s impatience, but never dealt with from Hagar’s point-of-view. Hagar reminds me of myself in so many ways. Especially since she was a single mother. I bet you can relate as well…
Isaiah 41:10 – “Fear not, for I am with thee.” KJV
Hagar was the maidservant to Sarah, Abraham’s wife. Due to Sarah’s impatience, Hagar was given to Abraham in order to conceive a child for the couple. When Hagar became pregnant, Sarah started to mistreat her. As a result, Hagar ran away… When Hagar ran away into the wilderness, she happen upon a spring of water where an Angel of the Lord met her.
I can only imagine how distraught Hagar must have been: she ran away because of mistreatment, she was in the wilderness, and she was pregnant. I can relate to Hagar in this scene 110%. I was young, abandoned by my child’s father, and although I wasn’t in the wilderness, being in the country-four hours away from home-sure can feel like it! I had no clue how I would take care of a baby. I was still learning how to take care of myself.
1 Peter 5:7 – “Give all your worries and cares to God, for He cares about you.” NLT
I remember, riding in my car one particular day feeling completely incapable of having/taking care of this baby growing on the inside of me. I was having one of my many meltdown moments. I turned on Smokie Norful’s song, “I Need You Now” and let the lyrics of that song express how hopeless and weak I felt at that moment:
“The agony of being alone/Fear of doing things on my own/The test and trials that come to make me strong/The feelings of guilt, hurt, shame, and defeat/The waves of trials that beat upon me/But to know Lord that in you: I have VICTORY”
Thinking about it, GRACE really helped me drive. My tears wouldn’t stop coming. I could barely see. I called on the name of the Lord that day. IN MY CAR. I told Him that I NEEEDED HIM. He was all I had, all I could depend on, all I could hope in. I had an encounter with God in this moment that I believe helped me get some much needed strength.
Romans 8:26 – “And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness. For example, we don’t know what God wants us to pray for. But the Holy Spirit prays for us with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.” NLT
God heard Hagar’s cry of desperation. He gave her three instructions: 1. Go back 2. Obey 3. Name your son “ISHMAEL” which means “God hears“. Hagar would forever have a reminder of the time God heard her cry and blessed her. God still blessed her with a baby boy in the midst of her circumstances.
Psalm 127:3 – “Children are a gift from the Lord; they are a reward from Him.” NLT
Please believe just like God heard Hagar, me…and YOU; something is happening in our favor (Romans 8:28). You are not alone. He sees all. He knows all. (Hebrews 4:13) He cares. He has given us our own amount of grace that will allow us to make it through our parenting journey. Even if you have to sow in tears, that is OK. The beauty of our God is that HE ALONE understands the language of our tears. (Psalm 56:8)
Be encouraged. ❤
P.S. My symbol of grace was born December 30, 2010. The name given to her was “ABRIELLE” which means God is my STRENGTH. I have been able to tackle this journey because it is Christ alone Who strengthens me.
Phillipians 4:13 – “For I can do everything through Christ, who gives me strength.” NLT